I am writing this on my way back from Milan, on a journey through the mountains to the south. Train lines gash the valley floors and the silhouettes of the mountains loom close. The colours are muted in the October fog, but their beauty is somehow softened and heightened at the same time. Cloud vapours hang between recesses on the mountain faces and serve to highlight their scale. The train leans to the left and seems to hang in the air before righting itself back to cling closer to the trees on the Western side of the valley.

It seems less and less likely that I will go home. Political mess and economic faltering have made it if not impossible then deeply unattractive. I’ve changed. I’m not sure I can go back now. Of course I miss everyone. It hurts, when I think about it, but I have to make a decision now. Do I live life as if I’m taking a sabbatical or do I live it so that I can commit to it where I am?

It’s such a beautiful country, Switzerland. People here are so diverse, open, and challenging. There’s very little I can say against it, except that it isn’t home. But maybe I can make it home.



There’s Something About Zombies

Zombies. The living dead. Michael Jackson in Thriller. The word alone is enough to give me a sleepless night. Sleepless, not just from sheer terror but sleepless from busily plotting my zombie apocalypse survival plan. If you don’t have one already you’re a fool. A FOOL!

Zombies have scared me since I was quite young, almost as much as vampires. Vampires scared the shit out of me. But somewhere along the way, zombies began to supersede auld Nosferatu in my terror stakes. This is because of 28 Days Later, no two ways about it. For a long time, I didn’t have to worry about zombies cropping up in pop culture that much. We had entered the era of the vampires (again). Zombies were outré, vampires were making their dastardly come back. Not that dastardly, as it happens, as it was in the form of some pretty shit teenagers being pensive and covered in glitter. Vampires aren’t scary anymore, they’re pathetic. Granted, there have been movies like Let the Right One In that returned terror and horror to the lore of vampire but the damage was done.

Zombies, on the other hand, had been evolving in the cultural wasteland left behind when vampires lost their bite (sorry). 28 Days Later, a film I still cannot watch in its entirety, changed the post-apocalyptic horizon forever. Zombies are now even MORE terrifying. They can outrun me for the love of god!! How am I supposed to make my way to a safe haven with a pack of virulent undead sprinting along behind my flat-bed pick-up truck?! I won’t even have a chance to reload my double-barrelled shotgun. It’s a disaster. A DISASTER. Even movies that are supposed to be funny (Shaun of the Dead, Zombieland) just make me queasy. I still haven’t seen all of Shaun of the Dead and my friend said that watching my facial expressions during Zombieland rivalled the entertainment value of the film itself.

This brings me to the current landscape of prime time television, a realm in which I was safe from zombie Armageddon. Not so since the launch of The Walking Dead. Now, I’m not a complete wuss but Christ on a bike! The special effects experts on this series should be locked away. It’s crazy. Even thinking about that half-corpse from the pilot episode dragging itself across the grass gives me the willies.

Well, I said to myself, maybe I should sort this fear (kinemortophobia, as it happens) out. They say knowledge is power and fear of the unknown is… I’m not really sure what “they” say about fear of the unknown but it’s not good so I decided to read up on zombies. A quick scan of the most reliable source in the known Universe, Wikipedia, tells me that zombies are just people. People who think they’re dead but they’re not really. And by being “dead” they no longer have a life and therefore will do as they’re told. It’s social reinforcement, stoopid. So… yeah, OK then, but this person is TRYING TO EAT MY BRAIN!

Luckily, I live in Switzerland! Switzerland is well known for being brilliantly, defensively paranoid. This works for a continental zombie outbreak by dint of the fact that at the click of a few buttons, the entire country blows up all entry points and becomes a virtual island amongst the chaos. OK, I suppose the original intent for this was something to do with an enemy invasion but what worse kind of invasion is there than zombie??

In summary, zombies are as scary as they come. They seep into my unconscious like so many vampires before them and cause me to have dreams where some of them sprout wings and fly at me. That’s f*cking terrifying, seriously.  And it’s in the early morning, when I’m emerging from this fog of terror, that I thank the stars for the secret underground bunker located somewhere near my apartment that I apparently pay a tax for. Switzerland, you’re a zombie-phobe’s best hope, and I salute you, you paranoid bunch of well-prepared legends.


There’s an uncomplicated nature to the sky here: pale and clear, with a slight haze. No roll of cloud or break of shape or sudden shafts of sunlight. It’s a constant, warming blanket of sky. There is no wink of a cloud to leave you wondering.

The trams run along their clean lines, trains cut across the cities and country like the line of a carpet knife. The Alpine peaks rise on the horizon like a bank of cumulonimbi. The lake gleams in the late Summer air, the surface broken by the wash of a boat, speeding nowhere. The mountains – so clear, so beautiful – painted on to the background,

I am drawn to another lake, to another country. Now the water rocks the boat gently as it pushes away from the harbour. The waters are never quite calm, the swell always obscures a view. The lake takes you and pulls you into its centre, surrounded by hills of ever-changing green. The mottled blue sky greets you with the sudden roll of thunder. The calm beauty of one minute, the squalling winds of the next. The sky turns black, the winds pick up, the Irish Sea has come to County Clare.

The unpredictable mischief of a storm marries the sudden beams of brilliance in a complicated sky.



The Flatpack Mysteries

Aaah, IKEA… How do I hate thee? Let me count the ways…

1. The delivery time: It’s worth mentioning that, for a country so obsessed with time, the Swiss have a fairly lackadaisical attitude towards lengths of it. It took IKEA almost four weeks to deliver any furniture to my place. It was incredible. It’s something I was warned of before I moved but I’d been staying in a corporate let for two months before I found my place and I couldn’t really order anything before that. As a consequence, I was furniture-free for a month

2. The Sofa of Despair: I bought a sofa from the WONDERFUL IKEA back in the mists of October. Let me reiterate that: October. It was mid-January by the time the sofa had been deciphered. The combination of several boxes, the wrong set of instructions, my weedy arms, distinct lack of spatial awareness led to a three month delay in having a sofa. Didn’t stop me from having my house-warming though! It just meant I had what one of the girls described as a “mystery couch”: you never knew when one part was stuck to the other and whether you’d end up on the floor or not. Not a fun type of mystery, needless to say.

3. The Bed of Doom: It took IKEA three or four weeks to deliver this bed, and when it was delivered, I found I was too wee and weak to actually build it myself. That and the fact that life from mid-October to Christmas was so hectic I never got the chance to ask friends around to help. Luckily, the wonderful Brian and Anthony sorted it all out for me at the same time as the sofa. It was then that I discovered IKEA beds do not come with slats… The mattress falls through the gaping holes like semolina through a sieve. Really lumpy semolina. It’s worth mentioning that work had been a bit nuts. As a result, IKEA trips are confined to post-work trips at 8pm. I made one such trip two days after the bed was assembled. I was tired. I was hungry. I was cranky. I went to the Schlafzimmer section. They didn’t have the cheap-ass slats I wanted. I was cajoled into getting the slightly more expensive ones. I wandered down to the warehouse part to discover the unholy SIZE of the feckin things. I couldn’t lift one box, let alone the two needed. Grumpiness compounded, I left, vowing to never enter that reasonably priced hell ever again… Reader, I returned. I bought slats.

4. The layout: Designed to flummox, the layout of an IKEA showroom pushes all the wrong buttons of my anxiety triggers. I can feel the tension rise in my shoulders as soon as the lift door opens and I realise I know every single fake living room in detail but still have no idea how to short-cut my way to kitchenware.

Ok, maybe there are some underlying issues I need to address before I blame IKEA for all of my furnishing woes… I should probably learn how to ask for – and accept – offers of help from friends. I should work on my timing. I always end up in IKEA when everyone else ends up in IKEA. No. Bad times. The final thing I need to work on is acceptance. I need to accept the fact that with the amazing value that is IKEA furniture, come certain… inconveniences. But convenience in Switzerland (as with most countries) comes with a hefty price tag.

That sofa is worth it though. That is one damn fine sofa.

So, Switzerland, eh?

So. Zurich. That happened. Is still happening, in fact. After I got my shit together and packed, I made the biggest move of my life, to date. And here I am! In Switzerland, of all places. 

It’s been nearly six months now. I can’t quite believe that… In many ways, it seems like a couple of weeks, in others, like I’ve been here for years. And that’s a positive thing. I’ve settled in but the city still feels new and fresh and (despite all prior evidence to the contrary), exciting. It’s incredible here. The quality of life is so high. I can’t describe it accurately right now so maybe I’ll wait for another time, when I feel I can do it justice. 

The people. The people are what really make a place, right? I love Swiss people. I fully expected the stereotype, which was so awful of me, considering I come from a culture so maligned by lazy caricatures that I should be more aware or vigilant of applying the same rules of unfairness to other nationalities, but I didn’t. I came with this preconceived notion of boring, quiet, straight-laced, cold people and the truth couldn’t be more different. I love Swiss people! They’re funny, warm, have the strangest language EVER, the best chocolate known to man and (the ones I’ve met so far, anyway) have been so welcoming. I am very proud to say I have Swiss friends here.  

The Irish expat community has been an especially great way to meet people and make friends, too. I joined the local GAA club (proper emigrant, me!) and I have met some fantastic people and made some fast friends. The experience of those who have moved here and their willingness to help you out is so encouraging. They’ve all been through it before – the big move – and know how tough it can be so people here are instantly prone to offering you help to build your sofa or help you move house, find a flatmate etc. And they’re funny. They’re funny as fuck. 

But the person who has made the move for me sooooo much easier has to be Brian (GingerBlogMan). Brian and I were mates in university all those years ago and to have him (and his partner in love and crime, Anthony) in Zurich when I was making the decision to take the job was what really made my mind up to move. They really sold the place to me and if they weren’t here, I’m honestly not sure what I would have done on my own in a strange new city with no friends and only my work colleagues for company. They came around yesterday to build some furniture and mentioned that they needed to get me a house-warming gift – eh, you gave me friends! Can there be a better present than that? 

So that’s it for now. Niamhy (MetroChica) and I are starting a health kick so I need to go find some inspiring pictures of people with better bodies than us and super healthy recipes. Oh yeah, it’s January, baby. 

Adieu! Image

My Life in a List




This is my life now, reduced to lists, boxes and bubble wrap. Time has not been on my side but then neither has my capacity for extreme procrastination. I have begun the glorious task of throwing things away, though. For those of you who find this painfully difficult, do it once and well and I swear you’ll never look back. Declutter! Tis the way of the nomad. I do this at least once a year due to the fact that I can’t seem to stay in more than one house/ city/ country for very long.

But back to the procrastination, ay ay ay ay… I watched a movie last night. A movie! I leave the country in five days and I’m guiltily watching a movie whilst studiously ignoring the explosion that is my wardrobe. And trust me when I say you can’t enjoy a film when you’re that wracked with guilt. I did, however, start my ‘throwing out’ pile. At 7am this morning. Before work. This is spookily like secondary school, when it wasn’t an average day unless I was doing my homework either on the bus, as I was walking into class or in the class itself. I’ve always tried to convince myself that I work better under pressure. This is partly true but not when moving country! I really have to sort myself out…

At the same time, my desk at work is now clear and boxed up and all goods (ahem, my piggy bank and around 3 files) are now winging their way to Zurich! So I can do it when I put my mind to it.

Long days and long nights ahead but with an end that ultimately justifies the stress. Whether I’m in any fit mental state to celebrate when I get there is another matter!

Grüezi Mitenand!

Well, it’s been a while since I dusted off the keyboard and took a crack at this blogging lark! No time like the present though, as I am in the middle of one of the biggest upheavals a girl can go through – moving country. Again!

It’s all been a bit of a whirlwind, really. I quite my job last year, did a CELTA course while I figured out what direction I was going to take, tutored for a while and ended up on a 3 month contract in project coordination. 10 months later, they’ve offered me a permanent position and are moving me to Switzerland. Which has yet to fully sink in… Oh, and I move in a week. Eek!

I haven’t had too much time to soak it all up yet but I think that’s nearly working out better for me. It keeps my adrenaline up and my panic levels manageable. Almost. There’s a lot to do but the excitement is overriding almost everything else.

I’ll keep this particular post short ‘n’ sweet because I’m currently in “goodbye” mode and attempting to see everyone in the next 7 days as well as pack my life up, hand over work from my current position and figure out how to make very little money stretch a very long way in a very expensive city for the first month. But do tune in again soon (Orla and Niamh, the only people who will probably ever see this) for some of the face-palm action that only this walking accident could encounter in the most conservative country in Europe (like being asked if I was pregnant getting on the plane in Zurich this week. Mort.I.Fying).